Okay, I'm willing to admit that sometimes I don't always do things to the best of my ability. When Zachary is cleaning, he moves furniture AND matches the socks. He would never in a million years think of hiding something under the couch or the bed. I, on the other hand, am more of a surface cleaner. If I walk in my house and it "looks" clean, then I'm good to go. (Just don't look in my closet.....please don't. I will die of humiliation.) Now, this is fine until it is "big cleaning day." On that day, I go around my house ranting and raving, mainly at myself but sometimes directed at the kids. I'm going to tell you a few of the things that I was mad at myself about this morning......(and hopefully some of you out there will tell me I'm not alone in my half-hazardousness.)
1. Why did I think it was a good idea not to fold last week. I mean I continued to wash all the clothes but I did not fold one single freshly cleaned garment. It was all piled on the extra twin bed in Lee's room. Crazy!
2. Why is it a good idea to continue to shove things in a garbage can that is already full, especially when the trash bag is falling down in the trash can. Lazy!
3. Why was it a good idea to buy that bag of Halloween candy. Fullzy!
4. Why would I think it was a good idea to stay up so late last night watching the news. Hazy!
5. Why would a little person think it was a good idea to color all over the freshly mopped kitchen floor with side walk chalk. (This could've been worse, so I handled it pretty well.) Lousy!!
These are just a few things that were running through my mind this morning while I was straightening the house and cleaning the kitchen. Now that I have all the clothes folded and only have two loads to wash today, I feel better about all of those things. However, I'm sure that if Zach looked around or under, he would find things that I should be doing and completely bust my bubble, but for now I feel quite accomplished. I promise to myself to never let the folding pile up like that again.......(Well, at least until the next time that I have a hundred things to do and the laundry gets pushed to the side.)
On a side note my heart aches for those people in the Northeast that have had their lives turned upside down. My prayers are with them and the recovery workers. Hopefully, with everyone working together they will get it all cleaned up quicker than they expect.
And when He got into the boat, the disciples followed him. And behold there arose a great storm on the sea, so that the boat was being swamped by the waves; but He was asleep. And they woke Him saying, "Save us Lord. We are perishing." And He said to them, "Why are you afraid. O, ye of little faith." Then He arose and rebuked the winds and the sea, and there was a great calm. And the men marveled saying, "What kind of man is this that even the winds and sea obey him." Matthew 8:23-27
Tuesday, October 30, 2012
Monday, October 1, 2012
Baby baby baby.....
Okay...so I'm going to start this off as sort of a disclaimer. There are things that I know to be true, but these things don't always align with what I'm feeling at any given moment of the day. For example, I know that I am extremely blessed to have the children that I have held in my arms and to be given a fourth baby that I hold in my tummy. I know that I have had friends that have struggled with getting pregnant or experienced great heartache during pregnancy. It is not lost on me that to be a mother is a privilege, an honor, and a great responsibility. I never want my "feelings" about what I'm going through on a particular day to change what I know as truth about the distinct privilege it is to be called "Mama."
Now lets get to the feelings that completely contradict all of the nice things that I just said. I'm slightly overwhelmed, a little nervous, and very doubtful of how I will handle another precious child while balancing the needs of my other children and of course the man of the house. I have decided to make a little list of all of the feelings I have been having lately. Again, I want to warn you this is not a positive list......(Wow. This sounds so depressing! Lighten it up, Elizabeth!)
1. Although Zach tells me not to be embarrassed because he is a "grown man," and we have nothing to be embarrassed about, I can't help but feel a little (scratch that) ALOT embarrassed.
2. Yes, we know what causes it. (Hahahahaha......did you come up with that one on your on because it is soooooooo funny!)
3. No this is not a religious thing. We will not have a tv show on TLC called The Coopers where I talk about God deciding how many children we will have. (In fact, I can tell you this will be the last one from this set of Coopers. I know you are wondering, so there I said it.)
4. I will never ever get caught up on laundry. I will be doing tons of laundry everyday until this child turns at least 18.
5. I don't think I'm a supermom. Instead, I think I have been forced to let some things go that some of you wonderful awesome moms out there would never ever do. I have learned to pick and choose what to stress out about and when to say....ohhhh well, that kid can be bathed tomorrow. However, you will never know how encouraging it is to be called a supermom. It makes me feel like I'm one of those people that have it all together, and let's face it I have NEVER been one of those people.
6. Last night I couldn't get to sleep because I was so far behind on housework. I almost got up at 3:30 to do laundry, but the fear of waking up the husband that has to work and the kids that NEED SLEEP caused me just to go to the couch and sulk. (I also prayed a little and made a list about what I needed to do today, which helped my feelings too.)
7. I really hate our bank account. It needs to grow exponentially!
8. Have I mentioned we don't know where we are going to live next year? I mean we don't even know what state we will be in. Sometimes this excites me about the future and then sometimes this makes me want to go straight home to Eudora and spend as much time with ole Sally and Steve as I can.
9. I really shouldn't have given all my maternity clothes to Goodwill. What was I thinking????
10. Man, I feel huge and sick and tired and sick and tired and HUGE!
11. YES it is just one! (Although deep down I still worry about one hiding around in there somewhere but I have been assured that it is just one little flashing heartbeat.)
I will say that this morning as I was rushing out of the house and into the van to get Lee to school (which he looked so handsome and like he must have a mom that has it all together but we won't talk about how the twins were dressed.) I looked down at a little picture that was on the speedometer and saw this little picture. It reminded me that there is another little baby in there that I will love as much as the three babies I already love so much and that really nothing else matters. Thank you Lord for the life I have and the blessings you have given us!
"For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother's womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them."
Now lets get to the feelings that completely contradict all of the nice things that I just said. I'm slightly overwhelmed, a little nervous, and very doubtful of how I will handle another precious child while balancing the needs of my other children and of course the man of the house. I have decided to make a little list of all of the feelings I have been having lately. Again, I want to warn you this is not a positive list......(Wow. This sounds so depressing! Lighten it up, Elizabeth!)
1. Although Zach tells me not to be embarrassed because he is a "grown man," and we have nothing to be embarrassed about, I can't help but feel a little (scratch that) ALOT embarrassed.
2. Yes, we know what causes it. (Hahahahaha......did you come up with that one on your on because it is soooooooo funny!)
3. No this is not a religious thing. We will not have a tv show on TLC called The Coopers where I talk about God deciding how many children we will have. (In fact, I can tell you this will be the last one from this set of Coopers. I know you are wondering, so there I said it.)
4. I will never ever get caught up on laundry. I will be doing tons of laundry everyday until this child turns at least 18.
5. I don't think I'm a supermom. Instead, I think I have been forced to let some things go that some of you wonderful awesome moms out there would never ever do. I have learned to pick and choose what to stress out about and when to say....ohhhh well, that kid can be bathed tomorrow. However, you will never know how encouraging it is to be called a supermom. It makes me feel like I'm one of those people that have it all together, and let's face it I have NEVER been one of those people.
6. Last night I couldn't get to sleep because I was so far behind on housework. I almost got up at 3:30 to do laundry, but the fear of waking up the husband that has to work and the kids that NEED SLEEP caused me just to go to the couch and sulk. (I also prayed a little and made a list about what I needed to do today, which helped my feelings too.)
7. I really hate our bank account. It needs to grow exponentially!
8. Have I mentioned we don't know where we are going to live next year? I mean we don't even know what state we will be in. Sometimes this excites me about the future and then sometimes this makes me want to go straight home to Eudora and spend as much time with ole Sally and Steve as I can.
9. I really shouldn't have given all my maternity clothes to Goodwill. What was I thinking????
10. Man, I feel huge and sick and tired and sick and tired and HUGE!
11. YES it is just one! (Although deep down I still worry about one hiding around in there somewhere but I have been assured that it is just one little flashing heartbeat.)
I will say that this morning as I was rushing out of the house and into the van to get Lee to school (which he looked so handsome and like he must have a mom that has it all together but we won't talk about how the twins were dressed.) I looked down at a little picture that was on the speedometer and saw this little picture. It reminded me that there is another little baby in there that I will love as much as the three babies I already love so much and that really nothing else matters. Thank you Lord for the life I have and the blessings you have given us!
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| Yes. Of course that is me behind that picture with a towel wrapped around my head. |
"For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother's womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them."
Psalm 139:13-16
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